One month from today...

Today is September 4th. My due date is October 4th. It feels like a huge milestone in this process to be at this place. I am officially just one month away from D-day. Today I took a yoga class from one of my regular teachers who is also my massage therapist. I just got back from a massage with her and she told me that she could tell in class, by the way my face looks, that I am getting closer to having a baby. Interesting! (We will see if she is right) That is one thing I like about yoga people- they have very intriguing intuition about the body.

This has been a very good journey for me. When I think about all that has happened since that day last winter when we found out we were pregnant, I am kind of dumbfounded. A lot has happened mentally, emotionally, physically- and not all just because of a baby.

Something I for sure will do again in pregnancy and recommend to others is to choose health and discipline. I feel like I have reaped the benefits of these decisions in the way I feel physically and I am still able to do my hot yoga classes regularly. I also hope to be a positive encouragement to other pregos. I love being pregnant at the yoga studio. Every day new people come up to me with very affirming and encouraging advice and stories. They give me hope!

Something I want to avoid, is being the mom who communicates to the pregnant person that her life is over. I have been so bummed by a handful of times when moms (who mostly have never met me before) will say things to me as if they made the worst decision to have kids. It kind of feels like when a husband calls his wife "the old lady" or when spouses refer to each other as "the ball and chain". I realize that this whole thing will likely be the hardest thing I have ever experienced, but I don't want to lose sight of the precious gift that has been given to us.

I have been busy, busy, busy preparing for the arrival of our son and I feel pretty close to having the list checked off. Sometimes I just sit in his room in the rocking chair and think about all that is to come- it is a very sweet time. Sometimes I will talk to him when I am alone and I can't even get a couple words out without crying.

I can't believe I am about to be a mom.